Tangents

wholesome

2009-11-15T01:45:52Z

heartbreak city

but none of that began.

digtunnels @ 2009-11-03T18:17:00

2009-11-03T07:17:53Z

bad at life. need overhaul.

photos

2009-10-28T09:46:27Z

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Indra

Mia being a dork

Kate at Flip Out Festival (the next few are from that day)

Ian + David

Irit and Isobel

The Ooga Boogas

Naked On The Vague
I was really happy the film ones turned out, I'd never shot before in that kind of light

Hibernian House

I just bought one of these really cheap too, looking forward to having a play around

I GOT MY DSLR

2009-10-08T14:02:17Z

MELBOURNE 3-5 DECEMBER.
CANADA END OF DECEMBER.

HANDSOME.

digtunnels @ 2009-09-18T02:03:00

2009-09-17T16:04:01Z

Feel like bursting into tears.

Should probably go get my iron levels tested.

Daffodil

2009-09-08T09:27:05Z

Time affords a little now.

(this is pretty much the summation of Isobel and I in a photo. Clumsy at Kawa Cafe)

The scanner wasn't a very good one so they're all quite darker than the actual photos

Maude looking windswept and wise

Ali/Jenny at Radio Social

In the Blue Mountains, the walk from Katoomba to Leura

Eliza at Curious Cafe

The last day of Melbourne. Dan/Me/Tom/Matt.

Skulls, Leah at the Australian Museum

Last month in Sydney was top top top, there was so much brilliance happening, so many good bands to be seen, two weekends in particular that were spectacular. The first weekend there was an amazing show at Maggotville warehouse which doubled as Mike's farewell, it was madness. Wasted Truth, Kitchen's Floor, Blank Realm and Naked On The Vague as well as some other of my favourites played, all in one room and were all wonderful. Naked On The Vague as a 4-piece in particular blew me away, and when I went to see Blank Realm at a little art gallery the next night in got all drone-dancy and was mystical.
Last weekend was the Sydney leg of Flip Out Festival (put on by Aaarght! and Stained Circles) and was stupendous fun. ZOND are my new fixation. Royal Headache (friends and were on pitchfork! Too funny) were tip-top too. Pink Reason, Goodnight Loving and James Arthur's Manhunt were on the bill too, amongst other local bands, and maybe it's my bias but it really felt like the local talent was more exciting than the overseas ones.

It was my birthday on Sunday. I'm getting a dSLR and some other nice stuff. That's it. Sydney is better 'cos I know I'm getting out of it. Tip-top I am exhausted from doing uni work and not sleeping.

digtunnels @ 2009-08-25T23:43:00

2009-08-25T13:44:55Z

My silence momentarily interrupted. It's been busy, I haven't written anywhere in any format for a long time though I've been thinking of doing so for a fair while.

Real entry soon. Maybe. x

digtunnels @ 2009-08-07T21:05:00

2009-08-07T11:05:37Z

I GOT INTO EXCHANGE I AM GOING TO OTTAWA NEXT YEAR.

I needed that shit so bad. To get a job and start saving.

digtunnels @ 2009-08-05T11:19:00

2009-08-05T01:23:49Z

I feel like wandering around the whole city in a daze, with a perfect soundtrack.

inner sanctum split

2009-07-26T08:59:13Z

I think I lost my moleskine on Friday night. I'm reeling at the thought of where it is and who is reading it. I actually feel a little bit like I'm going to be sick. Especially because I probably left it a). at a friend's place or b). Yvonne Ruve at the gig I was at. Fuck fuck fuck.

And it had my Group Certificate in it with my tax money. But I don't even really care about that. I would rather it be lying in a fire right now than somebody else's eyes coveting it.

digtunnels @ 2009-07-17T22:30:00

2009-07-17T12:36:52Z

I can't shake this feeling. Don't know why it's been like this for the last few months (maybe year?) but I can't seem to run away from this looming cloud.

I don't really have any reason for this, maybe I need to adjust my definitions of 'success' 'satisfaction' 'happiness' 'loneliness'.

Early twenties, I wish I could say I am experiencing you. Awkward years over.

Film for Thought

2009-07-09T12:51:15Z

Got my film developed. These are of Melbourne and one roll from before I left.

Isobel & I sipping tea.

LOTS OF FILM-
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Hyde Park- the leaves had all fallen into the water and it looked like marbled paper

Isobel

Antonia

Grant & Zac aka Cougar Flashy and His Spooky Adventures playing at Jura Books

(he was drawing a picture of Grant on a t-shirt singing his song 'Build Forts'

that's Ali and they are all from the MCA Zine Fair as part of Sydney Writer's Festival

a protest for Sri-Lanka

MELBOURNE PICS!

(didn't think this photo would come out-the lighting was SO bad)

there was a really cool thing at Fed Square with light and sound, each pole thing made a different sound but all together it was (actually interesting) experimental kind of music.

love this photo

this was THE hardest photo to take. we were stoned out of our minds and decide to climb on this pyramid of rocks of sorts and we made Tom focus the camera, put it on self-timer and run back up the mountain. I'm surprised we're in the frame at all.

tree of crunchy leaves

outside my favourite little cafe called Pushka in the city, off 2 little alleyways filled with bins. There are so many crates in Melbourne, I wish I could get just one in Sydney easily to put my records in!

Mike arrives

in the hostel

I genuinely think Mia had swine flu, she was so delirious. It is amazing none of us in the room got what she had! we were sharing everything (the stupidity of youth)

on the Sunday afternoon we went to a house show where Electric Jellyfish and Sydney friends/good bands Dead Farmers and Straight Arrows played. that is their garden.

before we went to Dali. I was uncontrollable with giggles.

outside Pushka (with Psuche poster in background ha)

end.

Reviens

2009-07-05T12:20:45Z

Melbourne was immense amazing times and I'm in love with somebody who's too old for me and will only break my heart.
We kissed and I said I can't do that with him because I adore him too much. Then we watched The Johnny Cash Show and I got shivers.

Free West Papua, Free Hawaii, Free Cheese! And Wine! - a classic

fun lord. amazing.

we got stupidly stoned and went to see the Salvadore Dali exhibition which was wonderful.

I could not control myself

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Going to get my film photos developed tomorrow - hopefully they will be great.
Spending just about every day and night with probably my favourite person in the world was so incredible and I miss it dearly. We went to darling little cafes, a gig just about every night, a house show with Sydney bands/friends, Castle Tones (put on by Mistletone) where love was professed, graffiti hunting, op shopping galore, lovely people meeting, park sitting, coffee drinking and lots of giggling.
I can't wait until I finish university and can move there. Sydney is not home anymore.

I also feel like a mess. I cry with no provocation. I want to say so much more but don't have the means.

digtunnels @ 2009-06-16T23:47:00

2009-06-16T13:48:33Z

I'm selling some stuff.
Clothes up tomorrow.

http://shop.ebay.com.au/merchant/sundaybestt_W0QQ_nkwZQQ_armrsZ1QQ_fromZ

Just over a week until melbourne fun times.

digtunnels @ 2009-06-11T23:19:00

2009-06-11T13:25:57Z

Finished uni work. Going to do part-time next semester most likely and just try to save save save for Canada exchange and if I don't get that, for New York.
I want to move to Melbourne so badly but I want to finish my degree first, but I don't know if I want to move to Melbourne more than finishing my degree here. I guess I should wait and see what happens with exchange.

I think I nailed it the other day in saying that it's not Sydney that I don't like (I quite love it), it's not the people, it's just that I've been living here my whole life, in the same house with friends who I seem to be in different places too, and I feel like I just want to challenge myself. I want to put myself in a city where I don't know anybody (or hardly anyone) and see how I fare, and make friends that I want to make without the politics of current friendships. I know how hard that would be for me and I'd get depressed pretty quickly and easily but if I did it it would be the greatest confidence boost I could ever ask for. Losing myself in a new city and fighting those battles alone is the most appealing thing to me at this moment.

I'd posr something more interesting but in the end it doesn't matter, this is my whinge journal and it will always remain such.

Need to have a whinge

2009-06-03T20:29:41Z

I am absolutely astounded with the amount of things that can go wrong in the last week and a half, when I need nothing to go wrong at all.

Surely this is some sort of test for me, because it's getting a little bit ridiculous and I'm on the verge of saying fuck it and failing uni.
Now I must make my way there at an ungodly hour.
Au Revoir.

Aroo

2009-06-02T11:55:11Z

Just updated my blog when I should be writing an essay.
I'm not so happy with it, I wish I could tweak it and refine it and go into a lot more detail, but I have no time, and when I do I'm not inspired.

Please feel free to leave abusive comments. They will be appreciated.

Drone

2009-05-27T13:41:51Z

I just booked my flights to Melbourne: 25th June to the 2nd July. Shit yes. I'm going with Mike, Mia and Tom and it's going to be great. Probably staying at The Exford. Mia and Tom aren't stayig the whole time, and Tom and I are just going to op-shop until we fall over.
I need this holiday so badly even though I should be saving for Canada if I get the exchange.
It is a little annoying that everybody has plans to go down to Melbourne at the same time though, I wanted to get away from Sydney people, not get away from Sydney and see the same people in a different city. But what can you do.
University is raping me with assessments but I finish on the 5th of June so if I'm not comatose there will be much to celebrate.
The boy I kind of like is moving to Melbourne. How upsetting.
Here are some of the photos from my latest roll of film.

eliza

me and a kitty. other people can't focus it seems.

these next ones are from the Peewee/Deaf Wish/The Stabs instore at Repressed Records

the other day I found out that one of my friend's friend died from an accidental drug overdose. It rattled me and I can't sop thinking about it, as I'd just met this girl a week or two before. I know this stuff happens all the time but it still is unsettling, and this is the first time something like this has happened to me - where someone of my age and with mutual friends has died. It is such a waste that she died of a drug overdose too. Such a stupid waste. Anyway, I am a little worried about said friend due to a number of circumstances but I hope everything plays out alright, and as upsetting as this ordeal is I hope it kicks some sense into said friend and her friends to not be so wreckless with dangerous drugs. It's only sad that somebody close to them had to die for them to maybe realise it.

Also, my cat will probably have to be put down this week.

No

2009-05-15T09:52:43Z

Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.
Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love. Must not fall in love.

Not with him.

Flying Nun

2009-05-12T12:40:25Z

I'm a little bit (a lot) in love with The Clean.

Also, despite all my shit I've been in the company of some really interesting and amazing people the last few weeks. It's good to make new friends or at least contacts.

some more snaps

2009-05-07T13:29:40Z

not the greatest set but still playing around with stuff.

That's René of Aktion Unit (Melb) who came down to Sydney for the weekend and put on some great shows.

This show was at Serial Space.

Marcus of Scissor Lock

Cougar Flashy & His Spooky Adventures (Melb). This is Grant and his Norweigan (not really, but is tall and blonde and looks so Norweigan!) friend who are amazing. Grant used to be Fulton Girls Club. He's a genius. Buy his albums. He will also be in Sydney again on the 16th and 17th! Definitely worth checking out.

My friend Dan from Aktion Unit. I adore this photo, it's his whole personality. He is probably the most lovely person you'll ever meet and I wish we lived in the same city.

Tom, Tula, Jenny, Mike.

my lovely Pup, Maude.

Wentworth Park

digtunnels @ 2009-05-05T22:37:00

2009-05-05T12:40:33Z

I'm fairly sure I have some sort of complex, how do people manage when they have such amazing friends and they themselves don't live up to those standards.

The shadow never got a solid form, people always like tangible things better.

digtunnels @ 2009-04-12T13:42:00

2009-04-12T03:49:36Z

I've always wanted to write. I don't know what stopped me, I guess the fact that I'm too stupidly self-conscious in my self and some opinions, because I know that there are always people out there who are better than me. Always people who know more than I do and should be doing the writing, I should be doing the reading.
But I figure it takes lots of practice and time, and I want to start. I just hope I stick to this. I'm going to do it at blogspot and see what happens. If I get confident enough maybe I'll send stuff into some music publications.

I love the fact that my friends do so much, are so involved in what they want to be involved in, and I just cruise around and enjoy their accomplishments in that I'm so proud of them. I think it's time I stopped becoming only interested and started becoming active.

Social Theory

2009-04-06T11:17:06Z

Durkheim is a cunt.

2009-03-31T09:26:54Z

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These are from the Decolonise Festival in Sydney over the Australia day Long Weekend, which celebrated DIY/warehouse culture in Sydney. This is Peewee. It had just started to rain.